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September 23, 2008
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September 21, 2008
Disappointment
Dear Legend,
I yearn for each day that I can see you. But this week I've been denied. TWICE. You had me on high hopes since last Sunday. And even telling L that you would try and come out last night. I know you're busy, and I may just be more sensitive when it comes to issues that involve you. I just want to see your face.
I still worry that I am just setting myself up for an eventual heartbreak if you leave next year. I feel like everyone is watching me, hoping I won't fall any more than I already have. Still, I can't help what I feel.
Every year, I wish for the same thing, and I can't say that I don't get it. I just wish I could get it 100%. But that's probably asking too much. I don't deserve it. L says if she were in my shoes, she'd be so happy, yet I still crave more.
I'm just disappointed. With Tuesday. With today. With myself.
I yearn for each day that I can see you. But this week I've been denied. TWICE. You had me on high hopes since last Sunday. And even telling L that you would try and come out last night. I know you're busy, and I may just be more sensitive when it comes to issues that involve you. I just want to see your face.
I still worry that I am just setting myself up for an eventual heartbreak if you leave next year. I feel like everyone is watching me, hoping I won't fall any more than I already have. Still, I can't help what I feel.
Every year, I wish for the same thing, and I can't say that I don't get it. I just wish I could get it 100%. But that's probably asking too much. I don't deserve it. L says if she were in my shoes, she'd be so happy, yet I still crave more.
I'm just disappointed. With Tuesday. With today. With myself.
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