Some People Want It All

But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you...

I Don't Know What to Think Anymore

I thought it wasn't an issue anymore.

I thought you might be turning around.

I thought maybe I can do this.

But now it's back and you're trying to hide it again.

What am I supposed to think?

I'm still torn...

I would do just about anything for you. But like R said, "Do not make someone a priority, when to them you are only an option." Is that all I am? An option? Maybe one of the better ones, but not enough to be a priority...

Missing You

I took that shirt that you thought had sleeves that were too short. I kept it as a way to remind me of you. I slept with it the past two nights, pretending you were next to me...

I talked to C last night. The night you left, I was in the car with W and L and we were stuck in traffic. And I was thinking about how you would probably get us out faster. I miss having you drive. I always feel safe when you're driving. C asked me if I had ever told you that. I said in a way, but probably not in the nicest way.

I keep thinking about everything, and what I'm willing to give up for you. And I'm starting to think that I truly do love you. But I can't bring myself to say it to you...

You're Gone

You're gone now. It still hasn't quite hit me.

I dreamt about you last night. Nothing that I can remember specifically, but it was just normal, you being with me.

I feel like I'm missing something now. I know I am fine, but at the same time, I think about how you always drive us around. I feel lonely when I see other couples. Everything reminds me of you. It could be something small, like being stuck in traffic, thinking how you'd maneuver us out faster. Stupid things. I hope you're thinking of me too. I don't want us to end. Everything you say makes me still have hope. But I dunno if I'm just setting myself up.

I want to go visit you. I want you to want me to come. I want you to call and tell me about how your apt search is going. I want you to miss me and turn around and say you made a mistake. But I dunno. I trust that you still have feelings for me.

I miss you, even though it's only been a day. It could very well just be a regular weekday when I don't see you...